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I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard.
All a moment that's held in your arms.
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I don't listen anyway…
You ignore me,
And I’ll never be what you want me to be.

And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, not a man.
You can take me and throw me away.
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here all alone.
They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
The don’t know me,
'Cause I’m not here.

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can break me
As long as I know who I am

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
They can’t see me,
But I’m still here.

They can’t tell me who to be,
‘Cause I’m not what they see.
And the world is still sleepin’,
While I keep on dreamin’ for me.
And they’ll want to just whispers,
And lies that I’ll never believe.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
I’m the one now,
‘Cause I’m still here.

I’m the one,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here....

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2004-10-05 - 6:41 p.m.

Well...Ive decided to copy stenson and move to blogspot so I can comment on blogs.

Grateful Red.

There it is
Signing off of this locale
Randomman

2004-10-03 - 1:42 a.m.

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a-10,000,000 damn you suck
your best quality isyou suck (literally)
your worst quality isI dont know...nothing?
this is becauseyou are who you are
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Name
Age
favorite song
Parents thinkYou're lazy
Strangers thinkYou're smart
Friends thinkYou need a fuck buddy
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Agreed???

2004-09-22 - 11:46 p.m.

So here it is...my review of star wars: battlefront. This game...is fucking awesome. I would definitely recommend it to anyone, even if they aren’t usually a fan of FPS’s. OK: reasons this game is cool: you get to reenact historical battles (hoth/endor battles for one, I havn’t gotten to the prequel historical campaigns), there’s this really sweet conquer the galaxy mode, there’s like 10 planets and if you conquer one (win two battles) you get a cool ability that helps your troops in other battles. There’s a first and third person view you can switch between (in the pc version anyway) and they’re both VERY effective. The four sides (Rebels, Empire, droids, clones) are actually quite different than one another, even though they seem very similar. For example the imperials only get one zoom setting on their sniper unlike the rebel marksmen (markswoman actually) gets two.

Every side gets a unique heavy unit with a special ability. Imperials get a dark trooper that has a jet-pack and a sweet shot-gunny type blaster. Rebels get a wookie with a bowcaster. That bitch is next to impossible to kill. I think the clones get a jetpack guy. And the droids get DESTROYER DROIDS! They can roll around in the wheel mode and use shields and everything. The downside though is that when you actually want to shoot something with them then they’re REALLY slow....and they have no strafe. Annoying as hell.

Uhm, what else...the music of course is phenomenal, because it’s the original star wars score. Voice acting ain’t half bad. I havn’t even really played online. I cant begin to imagine what a lan would be like with this game! Sweet lord that would rock.

A few downsides: well, it doesnt have many...I suppose one is the price, but it’s a new game, and I think its worth it. Some of the levels have very low visibility, and its really hard to see enemies, esp. if your enemies are rebel snipers...but again, that makes sense. Another annoyance is that it’s next to impossible to pilot a speeder bike.
Overall, this game is extremely well thought out and well developed. I don’t know what it is, but LucasArts has been producing QUALITY shit lately. I mean, I loved xwing and tie fighter in their day, but that was about the only thing LA could produce. Dark forces, Jedi Knight...I mean cmon. But the last two games that they’ve produced have been excellent. KotOR II will most likely continue the trend. At least I hope so. There’s also supposed to be a republic commando game that’s coming out, I wasn’t planning on buy it, but I just might now. I dunno, go buy this game, cause I wanna have a lan over thanksgiving.

2004-09-13 - 11:33 p.m.

Hmm, weekend was shitty, had a cold and everything. Ended up watching Intollerable cruelty, donnie darko and vanilla sky (what a mind fuck that was). But today, today was good. Went to class, the girl that sat next to me last friday sat next to me again and I got her number. Ive been hanging around randomly. I got my capo in the mail from my rents, cause I forgot it at home. And best of all, the packers beat the panthers, on the road. But not only did they beat them, they dominated. Favre had 1 TD pass and no interceptions, which Ill take any day. Green had two rushing TDs and a TD reception and set a career high of 33 rushes. Defense forced two turnovers from which we scored two touchdowns. Final score: Green Bay 24, North Carolina 14. teh Rawl

or somesuch

2004-09-02 - 10:32 a.m.

As an addendum to last entry: public showers suck...no water pressure...oh well.

Another note: I saw more hot chicks here my first day than my entire life in rochester...damn...this town rocks

2004-09-01 - 11:04 p.m.

Hey all, sup, Im in college. Its pretty sweet. Floor-mates seem pretty cool, no one I can really relate to like back home though for some reason. I do live with a familiar face though, margit hebl lives a few floors up, so that's cool. UV blue vodka is good stuff...and its blue.

Class starts tommorow...only a chem lecture as the lab was cancelled for this week. Same with the eco discussion on fridays. So that means my three day weekend is gonna start an hour earlier than normal. Im gonna party it up and party it down. Or whatever the lingo is that you kids are using these days.

Peace

Randomman

2004-08-30 - 12:56 a.m.

So...just got back from the Nelson/Dylan concert...it fucking ROCKED. Nelson finaled with “I’ll Fly Away.” Dylan opened with “Rainy day woman #12 and 35,” he went on to play “It ain’t me babe” and finaled with “Like a rolling stone” and a kickass “All along the watchtower”

I leave for college day after tomorrow...shit to do tomorrow...oh well. Can’t wait to leave...woohoo.

Alycia is going to basic...she’s also madly in love with jeff...its hilarious.

Im ripping a small portion of my dad’s CDs...list: O Brother Where art thou soundtrack, best of fleetwood mack, essential bob dylan, Dylan on mtv unplugged, best of the doors, the beatles’ one, the Bodeans Joe Dirt car, and Aerosmith’s honkin on bobo.

2004-08-08 - 2:08 a.m.

I led an interesting high school life. Being two months removed from the whole thing I think I can be at least a bit objective. Looking back at my four years in high school, the only thing that I can safely conclude is that I floated through. There were really no highs or lows, no great achievements, although no great letdowns either. Of course there were a few ups and downs, but none of them significant on more than a day to day setting. Im really not sure if this should disappoint me or not. I don’t even know what I wanted to expect or happen. Maybe I wanted a Hollywood moment. Like the last scene in the breakfast club, where all the teens have some big revelation about themselves. Or maybe like the scene in better off dead where John Cusack wins the big ski race against his rival. This may seem like a bitch-fest, but I don’t care. I guess I just wanted to throw the winning touchdown, get a stand ovation for a lead role, get the girl, ya know. My biggest fear in life is dying in mediocrity. Maybe I just wanted to absolve that so I wouldn’t have to worry about it, I’m really not sure. I want to be remembered. People like RJ will be remembered for their grades, people like Stenson for their musical talent, people like Beth for her art. The other question is, if people do remember me, what will they remember about me. Most likely that I was just that annoying kid that talked too much. I’ve come to accept that’s who I am, for the most part anyway. But I want people to remember me for something I did, not who I was. I would rather be infamous than forgotten, but in a perfect world I would much rather be remember for something more than being an ass.

2004-07-30 - 12:59 a.m.

Where are we running to
What are we running from
Toward are dreams
Or away from our nightmares
Dreams slip through fingers
Rarely does a beast catch prey in apathy
Just out of reach are our dreams
Just out of reach is their prey

2004-07-28 - 4:50 p.m.

For those interested, I ordered my laptop last night :). Dell inspiron 9100 with 2.8 gHz P4, 512 megs ram, 60 gb HD, 128 meg video card, wireless card, free printer. Its gonna be freakin sweet, its like a 1900 dollar system that I got for like 1600. W00t for 15% off emailed coupons, free printers, HD upgrades, and free shipping. It should be here in two weeks...w00t.

2004-07-20 - 5:15 p.m.

AUGH! BOB DYLAN IS COMING TO ROCHESTER!!!!!!! SWEET JESUS!!! AUG 29TH!!!!! TICKETS ON SALE SATURDAY AT 10AM!!!! *Readys camping gear*

2004-07-17 - 1:00 p.m.

Well, I havn’t done this for a while, so I think Ill update. News no one cares about first: I read the new virtual cards for star wars (I still occasionally play a game or two) and black sun is the SHITZ0R! Its pretty nuts, black sun with scum, put Xizor and Guri with a ability 1 scrub at a site, they try to drop you with a leia/han/chewie combo or some shit, all you do is pull unexpected interruption, exclude leia from the battle, smack down by drawing two battle destiny from ability and Guri (V) text, add leia’s power to Xizor’s with interruption, and sac guri to satisfy all attrition. Then next turn you retrieve guri with the CC incinerator, which you also must throw in there, throw another one, and smack the remaining lonely leia to FUCKING OBLIVION! Also retrieving three force due to the fact that you can play scum whilst doing black sun. Play bane malar wherever your main black sun planet is and your force drain buffs cant be cancelled, and the POOF, they’re screwed. If I ever play again, Im playing this deck…it est shitz0r.

Onto stuff people will understand. Buckthorns suck ASS. They’re these huge ass tree-like weeds (about a foot in diameter) that grow into the ground (duh). Their root structure probably has something like a four foot outward radius and goes into the ground something like three feet. To remove them what you have to do is cut off the top and then dig out the main roots; to do this you must dig a hole around the damn thing and chop away all the roots with a hatchet until you can get the damned stump out. Yeah. It took me and my dad working together two hours to get 7 stumps….we have like 10-15 left out there. Oi.

I’ve been sucking lately at poker. I’m in somewhat of a slump. Hopefully Ill do well tomorrow. If not then who knows. Whatever

Party at adam’s tonight, w00t w00t. Went to the going out of business sale at face yesterday, got a red shirt with a yellow star and a big yellow CCCP on the front...bitching. Also got a stewie family guy shirt that says 'kill broccoli'. Going back today methinks cause mom says she'll also buy me the tie-dyed bob dylan shirt I saw. Sweetness.

Donze on the 31st

College on august 31st

I’m gonna miss y’all.

I’m off. Incon-fucking-cievable.

2004-06-14 - 1:57 a.m.

Well....in the words of teen girl squad...ITS OVER!! Finally. Looking back there are going to be three things I miss: my friends, drama, and physics (and the latter two's assossiated teachers/advisors). There are however, many things Im not going to miss: having to do shitty busy work, dealing with morons and assholes (although that's gonna happen anywhere you go) and much, much more.

Commencement got cancelled, then later reschedueled. That woulda been sweet. All the people who are in NHS and get honors diplomas just to look good and not for the right reasons (hint: SELF FUFILLMENT!!) wouldn't get to strut in front of the crowd. But alas, it was reschedueled. It was kinda boring, miller's and stenson's speeches were good. Vig's was ok, Allison bond's speech was well delivered if not uninspired. Jesse, matt and ellen played good riddance by green day near the end. That was awesome. The rest, was boring as hell.

I have a job at hallmark. Come visit me (90% of the time I'm on from 12-3 weekdays). I need another, more money :)

and now some words of wisdom from Jake Donze

"I know I'll miss you

After all we've been through

And all we've shared

I wanted to thank you

For the little things you do

That show you care

I will support you if you try to follow what you feel

Forget about what's practical, forget about what's real

Doubts may cloud the many routes that appear along the way

But if youre following your dreams

It'll always be clear as day

Always love what you do

Do what you say

Say what you mean

Encourage, Influence, Entertain and Intervene

Answer questions

Question answers

To yourself be true

Laugh and play

Sing and say

Act and follow through

Take only memories, leave only footprints

You can see right through me

While others only see

My wall of protection

You help me set free

Feelings that used to be

Safe from detection

Regrets dwell within the wells of things you've never tried

You have to build your sandcastles

That'll wait the tide

And if they fall rebuild the walls and take the time to mend

The only mistake you could make is to never try again

Always love what you do

Do what you say

Say what you mean

Encourage, Influence, Entertain and Intervene

Answer questions

Question answers

To yourself be true

Laugh and play

Sing and say

Act and follow through

Take only memories, leave only footprints

We have read between the lines

And changed each others minds

Through our conversations

We now have our goals set high

And are limited only by our imaginations

Always love what you do

Do what you say

Say what you mean

Encourage, Influence, Entertain and Intervene

Answer questions

Question answers

To yourself be true

Laugh and play

Sing and say

Act and follow through

Take only memories, leave only footprints...."

-Jake Donze "Leave only footprints"

2004-05-08 - 1:58 p.m.

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: There aren't any books in here

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? Nothing

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? I watched spiderman on dvd last night, that count?

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 1:30

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 1:59

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: me typing

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing? I went camping a few years ago

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at? another blog

9: What are you wearing? Khaki pants and a tshirt

10: Did you dream last night? Everyone always dreams, I just didnt remember it

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: Clock, paint, an artsy pic...this room needs decorating

13: Seen anything weird lately?: not really

14: What do you think of this quiz?: sweet

15: What is the last film you saw?: spiderman

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: College

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: I dunno, im kinda an open book, i dont have many secrets

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: make the economic playing field equal

19: Do you like to dance?: yeah, even though I suck

20: George Bush: scares me even more if he gets reelected and doesnt have anyone to answer to

21a: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: I always liked fiona

21b: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: Dante, virgil (I have a thing for strange names)

22: Would you ever consider living abroad? definately

2004-05-03 - 10:35 p.m.

Wee, I've been invited to a college girl's dorm! Lol, yeah, go me. In related news I am going to prom with gretchen for those who dont yet know. But yeah, can't wait, it will be fun, w00t.

Math is done. Big w00t. No more math for the rest of the year.

I need a job, applied at little bear today, off to erbert and gerbert's tommorow.

No physics tommorow, Im done at 10:30....am....WOO

Im off

2004-03-31 - 10:04 p.m.

Vizzini

Which Princess Bride Character are You?
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2004-03-28 - 5:35 p.m.

Damn, the past couple of weeks have just absolutely kicked ASS! So like I said before, I got into Wisconsin, which makes me happy. Now to new stuff.

Me and Haugen went to the VICA state championships for TV production this weekend and kicked Wayzeta’s ass. First place and we are going to nationals in Kansas City this June. Yeah, but damn, the chick on the Wayzeta team was really hot. Cletus calls it the Tits and Ass approach, put a hot chick on camera for states and hope that the judges ogle her enough so that they win…cept it hasn’t worked for the past three years. Won a 25 dollar certificate to best buy (Ive already bought morrowind with it). Thus continues mayo’s reign of terror! I also placed third in a technical math test, and got an honerable mention in a trade math test. Woulda done better had I attempted the harder questions I knew I could do on the tech test, but by the time I got around to it I had been doing math for THREE STRAIGHT HOURS!! THATS TOO MUCH MATH!!!! Also there was a dance, which was awesome. I headbanged…a lot. Whilst head-banging I saw this thirty year old (maybe late twenties) woman advisor head-banging as well, it was fucking awesome. I also met a GIRL…and go her email….go me? Lol.

And finally, I have a date to prom, but I’m not telling no one, cause it’s a secret…or surprise…or something. NEENER! Randomman

2004-03-10 - 8:09 p.m.

So yeah, it HAS been a while hasn't it? Much has happened, the play is over, I think I'm almost about to be laid off of my job. And most importantly: I got into Madison! w00t. So yeah, a weight off my shoulders. I really dont have much to say. Still single, still not king....damn. Im bored...in general....and I'm also rambling...

Well...that's it

2004-02-25 - 7:32 p.m.

Heheh, Im such a rabble rouser. So I will tell you my story, both for my amusement and for yours.

So we are having community week at mayo, and today we had an open forum about hate speech. I needless to say decided to spice things up a bit. So I made the comment that it’s not the words themselves that are hateful, but the thoughts behind them are what’s hateful. I also made the comment that its not the people who insult that give these words power, but the people are offended, because if you were proud of who you were, why would it even be an insult….and furthermore, how can someone possibly be insulted by someone who’s so ignorant to think that just because a racial slur says its true means it applies to everyone. So people thought I was speaking literally, that I advocated using racial, sexual, and other types of slurs, and that I didn’t think they were insulting. I was merely proposing a philosophical question. What’s more is that I couldn’t defend myself cause the faculty advisor gave Tony the order to cut my mike.

So anyway, I decided I wanted to make a statement, so I made a t-shirt. On the front it says “Proud to be a…” and on the back is has a four item list…the four items are Wop, Dick, Whitey, and Cracker. All of which I am. So Freddy called me to his office and after I intellectually OWNED him, I was told to ‘try to empathize with how other people feel for the rest of the week.’ What BS no?

Any questions, just ask.

Randomman

2004-02-16 - 1:47 a.m.


Which Family Guy character are you?

2004-01-19 - 1:19 a.m.

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Self-Lovin'93.3%
Never taken out of the packaging
65%
Shamelessness100%
79.4%
Sex Drive 94.7%
The Pope is envious
77.7%
Straightness92.9%
Just go fuck something, okay?
44.9%
Gayness 100%
83.5%
Fucking Sick100%
89.9%
You are 93.61% pure
Average Score: 72.6%

2004-01-18 - 12:07 a.m.

Empty Victory

Perched atop the pile of gold and riches

The cows and boars bow before him

The grapes spill wine at his mere thought

Ordering an underling to fill his chalice

He brings it to his lips, but comes up empty

Leaning down he fills it himself

But nothing

An empty chalice as a reward

Anything he wants

Anything he needs

Except that which he most desires

2004-01-17 - 4:03 p.m.

Your life in a Final Fantasy game by Neko_Kaolla
Character Name
Age
Hair/Eye ColorGravity Defying Green/Blue
Role in PartyTough as nails one
TypeGunner/Item shooter/etc.
In Game LoverAerith Gainborough
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2004-01-11 - 10:40 p.m.

These three are very similar as they are all variations on a theme, I couldn’t get any one poem to come out right, so I got these

My Grief

My grief has seen stronger days

My grief is but a weakened haze

Grief which once flew from pen

The well of tears dried up again

Which opened wounds once did bleed

Scabbing over carrying seed

Of better days for me and mine

When my love again will shine

Drought

I ink my pen it comes up dry

My well of grief dried out

My inky pen now filled with doubt

Upon the page I scratch my name

Put down my name upon a work of shame

A meaningless and senseless draught

That from no one ever thought

What did I do before I feel

This empty feeling which now is real

Nothing I’ve ever done or said

Has ever really been from my head

Desertion

I push the pen into empty well

The tip cracks on the dry glass

I swirl it around in vain

Trying to catch the globules of ink in the corner

Alas in vain as they vanish into the air

I withdraw my pen from the barren well

And try to scratch my work upon the page

The page rips and is destroyed

Nothing created but a void

2004-01-01 - 11:26 p.m.

Mm, I'm feeling very satisfied. There's nothing, and I mean nothing, like a good meal and then a nap. We had famous daves takeout, and I had the half barbeque chicken, and a glass of milk. And as I sat, eating my meat, drinking my milk, I thought "Damn, I don't understand veganism at all..." But to each his own aeh?

Well I'm not sure if you're interested but to those who are: my dad's surgery went fine, and he's making a speedy recovery. He's still in the hospital, but he's already up walking. Very good.

That's really about all

American Gods by Neil Gaimen is a good book

More than This by Peter Gabriel is a good song

Can't think of a good movie

Indeed

Randomman

2003-12-28 - 11:39 p.m.

"This looks like it could be it for the cardinals, 4th and 24 with 4 seconds left, vikings up 18 to 12. QB takes the snap, he's under pressure, this will be the last play of the game, rolls out, tosses it into the endzone and, CAUGHT, CAUGHT BY POOLE! TOUCHDOWN! THE CARDINALS WIN! THE CARDINALS WIN!!!"

And that was my day, muahaha, so the Vikes are out of the playoff race, and the pack are playing the seahawks at lambeau next week, sweet

More somber news, my dad is in the hospital, he's sick with something, and he is going to have to have surgery, low risk though, he should be ok. Just thought I'd keep yall updated.

Night

Randomman

2003-12-26 - 9:21 p.m.

Bah, I want to be home, it's so very excrutiatingly boring in wisconsin. Ya see, I don't mind being here, its being here with no purpose that makes me sad. We could leave tommorow, but no, we want to stay longer, for some reason. We have no plans tommorow, and all we're going to do sunday is watch the packer game. So we are leaving for rochester monday, instead of tommorow, wooo. Stupid rents

On the plus side, I celebrated christmas with my uncle and cousins on my mom's side, was much fun. They actually got me cool gifts. My uncle got me some good poker chips with a case, my elder cousin got me a wallet, which I desperately needed, and my younger cousin got me a barnes and noble gift certificate.

Went to celebrate said elder cousin's birthday tonight, I had chicken parmesan, it was tasty. Went to borders after and I bought american gods, hooray for gaiman. And such

I have too much to read

Randomman

2003-12-24 - 10:12 p.m.

I am completely convinced that my family (not my immediate family, but my grandma/grandpa/aunts/uncles on my dad's side) thinks that I am a women. Well, it might not be that bad, but still. There were two thoughtfull gifts that I recieved this year: a guitar magazine subscription, and a nice shirt (men's, luckily they got that right), two other gifts were cash, as if it were that hard to get a best buy gift certificate, and here's the kicker, my aunt and uncle (through my cousins) got me soap and body wash from bath and body works. WHAT THE HELL!!!! I AM A MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!!!! I don't really care that you cant think of anything to get me, get me food for all I care, but you do NOT buy a man products from anything with 'bath' or 'body' in the title, unless body is used in the context of working out, which is the exact opposite of bath and body works as when working out you get dirty, bath and body works wants to get you clean. At least my parents and sister got me thoughtfull gifts. My sister got me a feynman book and a book on the history of numbers. My parents got me a fractal calander, a favre jersey, a da vinci tshirt, the last left behind book and some cash. I mean cmon, bath and body works, it was nuts.

In other news I get to go spend time with my cousins and uncle who is living away from his aunt. No legal actions are pending as of yet. I dont even know whats going on. But that should be fun, exchange a few gifts, yada yada.

Went to RotK yesterday again, better than the first time maybe, I dunno, it was still good.

You guys all suck for leaving me, I'm going to be very very bored when I get back, but hey, what can I say. That's about it for now

Randomman

2003-12-17 - 5:22 p.m.

Plus check out the wednesday post bulletin, Im on the cover, heheheh. It's all trippy n' shit. LotR kicked ass, Im leaving to go play poker in like an hour, that's all I have to say.

 

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